Friday, June 30, 2023

Collage #65

The summer month of June
Sends friends from afar
We take walks and swim
We eat cakes and sing
Cụ goes to a casino
And plays slot machines
With a million-dollar smile
She shows off her prize
Bà goes to Dallas
To be with old friends
They have so much fun
They can’t stop laughing
Drakeson goes to camp
Sleeping away from home
Milli misses him a lot
Five days are so long
Now we are together
June is almost over
But the fun goes on
Summer has just begun
Hurray for summer fun



Monday, May 22, 2023

Hand

When I go to sleep at night
Hand goes to sleep too
In the morning when I rise
Hand prefers to stay asleep a while

Hand is like a lover
Who requires a lot of care
And wants to be caressed
With lotion to stay soft and fair

Hand is not happy with me
Putting Hand in a splint
Ignoring Hand for a few weeks
Even when Hand was swollen

Now the splint is off
But Hand is not pleased
Hand grants me a hard time
Blaming me of neglect

Hand complains of pain
Saying Hand needs some more rest
Before getting flexible
Hand enjoys seeing me beg

Hand tells me I need
To show my love and devotion
It will not be in just a day
When Hand allows feeling well again

Hand says repentance is in order
Adding in time and patience
Hand will think of forgiving
Perhaps in a few weeks

A few weeks or a few months
I opt to learn to wait
I hope Hand will agree
To soon again be supple

I regret getting Hand hurt
And breaking her precious bones
I hope Hand will forgive
So my life will not be so dull

I will take care of Hand
Each hour of the days
Count on me, the faithful lover
Love Hand, I will forever


The poem Hand was written a few days after Tay

Tay

Tối tôi lên giường ngủ

Tay cũng ngủ theo tôi
Sáng mai khi tôi dậy
Tay chưa chịu dậy ngay


Tay như người yêu nhỏ
Cần phải được chở che
Vẫn muốn được vuốt về
Bôi kem lỡ cằn khô

Tay giận tôi mấy tuần
Bó băng không ngó ngàng
Như nằm tù một chỗ
Mà còn bị xưng vù

Bây giờ lấy băng ra
Nhưng tay chưa bằng lòng
Muốn phải được chăm sóc
Không thì Tay làm eo

Buổi sáng Tay nói đau
Cần nằm nghỉ xả hơi
Tay chưa muốn mềm mại
Để tôi còn ỉ ôi

Tay giữ cứng một hồi
Cho đến khi tôi bảo
Tay yêu cho xin lỗi
Thì Tay nhịn một hồi

Nhưng Tay bảo tôi rằng
Phải chứng minh lòng thành
Không phải chỉ một ngày
Mà được lại như xưa

Tay bảo tôi sám hối
Thêm vài tuần nữa thôi
Phải kiên nhẫn đợi chờ
Đến ngày Tay tha thứ

Vài tuần hay vài tháng
Cứ phải nhẫn tâm chờ
Mong một ngày Tay chịu
Dịu dàng lại như xưa

Tôi ăn năn thương Tay
Đã bị gẫy ống xương
Tôi mong Tay quên giận
Để đời đỡ chán chường

Tôi sẽ săn sóc Tay
Nâng niu từng giây phút
Tôi người tình chung thủy
Yêu Tay suốt cuộc đời

Sunday, May 14, 2023

The Questions Mom Asks - Mother's Day 2023

Mom asks if I fell
Each she sees me
Wearing a blue sling
As though she has not seen my splinted arm before

Mom asks when my father died
And the cause of his death
It has been sixteen years
But the loneliness for him is here

Mom asks where Thuan lives
And what about Mai, Hiep, and Tung?
She wishes we were not so far apart
For it doesn’t sit right in her heart

Mom asks about a grandson of hers
Is he working and perhaps with wife?
I reply he is just a young lad
Who is about to complete his high school years

Mom asks who is coming to visit
And who already came and went
Did the visit take place already
And when will we have visitors again?

Mom refers to me as Auntie
When asking my grandchild where I have gone
She must think I am too young
Not old enough to be a grandma of my own

Mom asks if I knew my uncle
Is he now gone from this earth?
Who is his wife she wonders
And how many children did they have together?

Mom asks how did it happen
That the two of us are here with each other?
Did we flee our native land together?
Do you still have the same career?

Mom says she had a dream
An invitation to visit her homeland
She was so happy to say yes
But that was just a dreamy dream

Mom asks if all of us have left
The country of our birthplace
Fleeing to a new country
Which now we call our home

Yes, Dear Mom, all of us have left
The country of our birthplace
It is right what you remember
It was not a dream at all

Dear Mom, you often state
You do not remember things
But that is just fine with me
I will hear whatever you say

Keep on asking me questions
For we have a long time to talk
It is time to shed all worries and sadness
And be happy as we celebrate Mother’s Day



Những Gì Mẹ Hỏi
Viết cho Mother’s Day 2023

Mẹ hỏi con té à
Mỗi lúc thấy tay tôi
Đang đeo cái sling xanh
Như Mẹ thấy lần đầu

Mẹ hỏi năm nào Ba mất
Vì cớ chi Ba mất
Mẹ càng nhớ Ba hơn
Những lúc thấy cô đơn

Mẹ hỏi Thuần ở đâu
Còn Hiệp, Mai, và Tùng?
Sao mỗi đứa mỗi phương
Sợ Mẹ buồn thiên thâu

Me hỏi nghề của cháu
Dạ thưa cháu còn non
Chỉ sắp ra trung học
Vậy Mẹ tưởng cháu đã vợ và con

Mẹ hỏi ai sắp đến
Và ai mới tới chơi
Khách ra đi rồi hả
Bao giờ mình lại có người viếng thăm

Mẹ hỏi cháu ngoại tôi
Cô Trân đi đâu rồi
Chắc Mẹ nghĩ tôi trẻ
Làm chi đã là Bà

Mẹ hỏi con biết bác Đệ chứ
Bác mất rồi phải không
Vợ Bác là ai nhỉ
Bác bao nhiêu người con

Mẹ hỏi tại sao Trời run rủi
Mẹ con ta tới đây
Mình đi chạy loạn chung?
Con vẫn làm nghề xưa?

Mẹ nói tối qua Mẹ nằm mơ
Có bạn rủ về quê nhà
Về Việt Nam Minh Châu Trời Đông 
Mẹ mừng nhưng rồi tỉnh

Có đúng mình đâu còn ai nữa
Mình đã đi cả nhà?
Qua đất nước thứ hai
Mẹ mừng ở với con

À đúng vậy Mẹ ơi
Mình đã đi cả nhà
Me vẫn nhớ đúng ghê
Chẳng phải Mẹ nằm mê

Mẹ ơi Mẹ hay nói
Đầu óc Mẹ hay quên
Nhưng không sao đâu Mẹ
Mẹ hỏi gì con nghe

Mẹ cứ hỏi nhiều câu
Mình nói chuyện dài lâu
Cuối tuần Mẫu Nhật ăn mừng nhé
Mong Mẹ luôn vui quên ưu sầu




Sunday, April 30, 2023

Christmas in April

It was a weekend getaway
A Christmas gift
Like celebrating our anniversary
In a log cabin with a hot tub
For just you and me
So much to see and do
In a charming town
Good food and good music abound
The Play That Goes Wrong went right for us
In good weather we walked around
The wildflowers lured our eyes to see
The hummingbirds kept us company
The pasture cows lay down to rest
The Longhorn cattle showed off their prize
The bats were gone at Old Tunnel Park
But the trails were open the birds were free
The singer strummed his guitar and sang his songs
And told the tales of song writers
Who came to sing when time was old
And to write songs to warm the souls
We relaxed at the Japanese Garden of Peace
A gift given for a friendship so rare and fine
The Zion Lutheran church stood tall
And the Vereins Kirche retained its charm
As we explored the old town’s streets
It was a lovely Christmas in April indeed




Monday, March 27, 2023

Feeling Lost

Behind the smiley face
Lies a deep sadness
Only known to my lonely soul
Amid the laughter
And the surrounding happy sounds
I hold my feelings inside
My mind plays tricks
I am not sure
If what I feel is what should be
Or if I remember things right
Not all things are familiar
I am disoriented
Country borders are a blur
Time line is not a straight line
It circles around
Connecting the past and the present
In a random pattern
That changes each day I wake up
What you tell me are mine
Seem to belong to someone else
I am a little scared
Of what lies ahead
Although I am comforted
With the love and care you share
I yearn for something different
Just to feel I have options
To control my destiny
When in reality I feel so lost

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

A New Beginning

A new phase of our lives begins. A year ago we moved long distance and started a three-generation household. We now will begin a four-generation one, in a new home a bit further away from the city. I think of it as living in the country, even though our address is still the city. I am bringing my mother here to live with us. It will be challenging, but I hope rewarding. My body reacted to something like stress. I suppose that is all normal. There are a few reasons why this change is not good for my mother. She will be in an unfamiliar surrounding with no friends. To walk to the street, she will have to navigate a steep hill of a driveway. She has been expecting to live with my two brothers and a daughter-in-law in her current state of residence. It will be hard for her to communicate with the family members who do not speak her native language. She will have to start all over at an advanced age. But circumstances dictate this change. I hope in time, she will embrace the new lifestyle. I hope the children’s laughter and presence will brighten up her days. Although we all will have to change and adjust, I think our lives will be enriched. I drink to a new beginning.

Wednesday, January 18, 2023

Big Bend

I was awakened by a phone call at five thirty. I was disoriented and confused. I did manage to turn on a light and pick up the phone, and then realized the light source was on the other side of my bed and the phone was not my phone. It took me a while but I did go back to sleep for another two hours. I just came back from a week of hiking in the western part of Texas the day before. 

One can see and learn a lot in a week. I did. Now I know a little more about the state that I’m calling home - probably for the rest of my days. I am grateful for that. This trip was a substitute for another trip that is still on my bucket list. The two trips are vastly different, one is on glacier land and one is on desert land. I signed up to go hike in Glacier National Park three years ago. It was cancelled when the pandemic hit. I still haven’t been there. Our schedule and Glacier trip offers somehow did not match and I found myself using the Glacier trip credit to sign up for Big Bend National Park. I still hope to write about Glacier one day, but I have no regrets about the Big Bend trip. The name of the trip is Hiking at Big Bend, Guadalupe Mountains & Carlsbad Caverns, but we also went to Fort Davis and Boquillas, Mexico.

We flew to the El Paso airport. The hotel was supposed to call an Uber for us, but we were told the president was in town and Ubers were not available. However, if we could get a taxi ourselves, the hotel would reimburse us. I did not keep up with the news and it did not register to me that this was our PRESIDENT she was talking about. I was also confused about getting a taxi when Ubers were not available. It was a good thing there was an information desk inside and we were directed to walk a few blocks away to get a taxi or Uber.

We decided to google the location of the hotel to see if it was within walking distance. It was only a little over a mile away. We decided to walk. The roads around the airport were deserted of cars. We smiled and said hi to the people who were walking towards the airport as we were walking away from it. People didn’t seem stressed out. They smiled back and were friendly. Except for the bumps on the brick sidewalks which were not easy on the suitcases, it was a fairly pleasant walk. 

We made it to the hotel and had time to relax before meeting with the group and the trip leaders. Our guide Erica promised we would learn at least ten plants by the end of the program. I’m not sure I can recognize ten different plants, but I did learn the names of the 22 participants in our group. The plants I remember the names for are sotol, mesquite, acacia, porcupine cactus, strawberry cactus, Christmas cactus, Engelmann cactus, lechugilla, creosote, leatherstem, weeping juniper, one-seeded juniper, alligator juniper, Texas sage, and madrone.

We stayed in El Paso for one night. Our first outing the next day was to Fort Davis National Historic Site. We walked the Hospital Canyon Trail, North Ridge Trail, and Tall Grass Trail and explored the ground and learned about the history of the fort. We saw a big horn sheep that seemed to stay at the same spot in the mountain for a few hours while we were there. We also saw a mule deer on the trail.

There is a military cemetery at Fort Davis. I found this poem called Fiddler’s Green at the cemetery.

Halfway down the trail to hell, in a shady meadow green
Are the souls of all dead troopers camped, near a good old-time canteen.
And this eternal resting place is known as Fiddlers’ Green.

Marching past, straight through to hell, the Infantry are seen
Accompanied by the Engineers, Artillery and Marine
For none but the shades of Cavalrymen stop off at Fiddlers’ Green.

Though some go curving down the trail, to seek a warmer scene
No trooper ever gets to hell ere he’s emptied his canteen
And so rides back to drink again with friends at Fiddlers’ Green

And so when man and horse go down, beneath a saber keen
Or in roaring charge of fierce melee you stop a bullet clean
And the hostiles come to get your scalp, just empty your canteen

And put your pistol to your head and go to Fiddlers’ Green

After visiting Fort Davis, we went to the town of Terlingua and spent the next four nights there. We explored the various areas of Big Bend National Park the next three days and hiked into Boquillas del Carmen in Mexico on the third day. We enjoyed an evening of stargazing on our first night in Terlingua, which is one place with a “dark skies” designation. I hadn’t seen a shooting star in a long time and we saw one that night.

On the first day at Big Bend, we travelled on the Ross Maxwell Scenic Drive and hiked the Chimmneys Trail, with volcanic dike formations. We found evidence of past culture through pictographs and metates and stones with marks showing the where the sharpening of knives occured. 

We ate lunch at Cottonwood Campground, which was covered with cottonwood trees. Then we travelled the rest of the Ross Maxwell Scenic Drive to Santa Elena Canyon. We didn’t get to walk the trail because the water was high and muddy. We went to the Homer Wilson Ranch instead, after enjoying the beautiful view at Sotol Vista. We relaxed on the porch while our guide Jimmie told stories about growing up and herding cattle. We had dinner at the Starlight Theater in Terlingua. I ordered a Scorpion, which is a margarita with Sotol since we had just learned about this plant.


On the second day of Big Bend, we went to the Chisos Basin. We hiked the Lost Mine Trail which climbs up the whole way, gently at first and more steeply at the end. At the top, we were rewarded with the beautiful vista of the Juniper Canyon and the northern rim of the Chisos mountains. It was a windy day and I was a bit chilly as we sat on the exposed rocks to eat lunch. On the trail we could see Casa Grande, but we were told it was off-limits because there is a protected nest of peregrine falcons up there. We saw a lot of Mexican jays on the trail.


After spending some time at the Chisos Basin Visitor’s Center, we walked the short Window View Trail to get a view of and through the “window.” 

We went back to Terlingua for a tour of the ghost town with a history of mercury mining from cinnabar ore. We started at the Terlingua Cemetery which is still being used by the local community and ended at a church and met a Presbyterian priest there. He said there was going to be a service, but I didn’t see anyone around to attend. The cemetery has unique tomb decorations. 

We had a delicious lasagna dinner at the Big Bend Boating and Hiking Company where our guides work. The sunset was spectacular.

On the third day at Big Bend, we happened to be at the Panther Junction Visitor’s Center when the ranger set up a sunspot telescope. We took advantage of the opportunity before going for a walk at the Boquillas Canyon Trail. We went uphill to an overlook of the Rio Grande and then descended to a pebble beach. The wind was blowing hard. It was impossible for me to keep the sand out of my eyes. 

The wind stayed with us as we later ventured into Mexico, causing me to walk with one eye closed to minimize the chance that the sand would disturb my contact lens. We crossed the border at the Boquillas Crossing Port of Entry. We were taken across the Rio Grande in a small rowboat. Once we were across the river, we chose the transportation mode to town which is over a mile away. Two people from our party chose to ride burros while the rest of us walked. We had a tour of the town and had lunch at José Falcon, one of the two restaurants in town. The restaurant has a patio that looks over the Rio Grande. Very picturesque. We had dinner at Chili Pepper Café in Terlingua.

We left Terlingua the next morning and headed for the Frijole Ranch Historic Site in Guadalupe Mountains National Park. We drove through the town of Marfa, an arts hub, and stopped at the Prada Marfa exhibit. 

We had lunch at the Frijole Ranch. After lunch, we went to the Carlsbad Caverns National Park. We took the Natural Entrance Trail down to the lower caverns, and then took the Big Room Trail loop for a total of 2.75 miles of walking underground. We had pizzas for dinner at Guadalupe Mountain Brewing Company in Carlsbad. Since the bus ride was long, we watched three movies: Geronimo, Kiss The Soil, and Carlsbad Cavern. We stayed overnight in Carlsbad.

We went back to the Guadalupe Mountains National Park the next day. We watched The River and The Wall on the bus. Our hike was on the McKittrick Canyon Trail, which is below the Capitan Reef. I like this trail because it has shade trees and is colorful with orange and red leaves. It follows a small spring fed creek through the desert and transitions into a canyon woodland ecosystem. We crossed a dry wash and creek several times. We stopped at Pratt Cabin where we met the same park ranger who was giving us information at the Frijole Ranch the day before. She gave us a talk of the history of the cabin while we sat on the cabin’s porch, enjoying the nice view. 

Afterwards, we continued on the hike and stopped for lunch at the picnic tables a little past the Grotto, which is a small cave with formations. It is only a short distance to the Hunter Cabin, which we explored after lunch. 

This was our last day with the group tour. We rode the bus back to El Paso and stayed at the same Hampton Inn we did on our first night of the tour. We had dinner at Los Bandidos de Carlos and Mickey’s in El Paso. Tom and I shared a large margarita, which was replenished with Linda’s margarita when she could not finish hers. We sang happy birthday to Erica before the night was over.

I told Erica and Jimmie that I had fallen in love with Big Bend and Guadalupe National Parks. It was a wonderful trip. Erica and Jimmie shared with us a lot of their personal stories and their knowledge of everything from plant identification to history of the area they created their home in. I am grateful we had them as our guides. Now Rio Grande is no longer an abstract geographical place that I could not pinpoint on a map. It not only forms a border between Texas and Mexico, it links the people who live across it in many ways. It houses a zone of biodiversity that I hope will be protected always. I hope to come back to this part of the state many times to experience more of its wonders.

We were fortunate to have Orest and Linda, two trip participants who live in El Paso, show us around before our flight back. They drove us around El Paso, showed us the border walls, the mountains that spread the length of El Paso and beyond, the views to Mexico and New Mexico, and their house at the foot of the mountains. 

We are thankful for the vision to preserve nature for mankind’s enjoyment. We are indeed lucky to be able to leave the hustle and bustle of everyday life to relax and enjoy what Nature has to offer.

I’ve enjoyed meeting and chatting with fellow participants. I’d like to thank Ken, Amy, Alan, and Marcie whose pictures are used in this piece.