Monday, July 31, 2023

Valentine's Day Poems

Growing up, I never knew the artistic side of my father. I did not see him read books, and as far as I knew, he did not pursue any hobbies outside of work. He was good with numbers. Math was the only subject I remember getting help from him.

Only a few years ago, while I was cleaning my mother’s bedroom after her fall, that I found poems my parents wrote to each other while dating. I wasn’t surprised to see poems my mother wrote because I knew about her interest in literature and poetry. She had written many poems in her youth and continued to do that in her old age. She constantly recites poems that she had memorized, even now when she has dementia. But neither my father nor mother ever told me about my father’s writings. I was floored.

And then just recently, I found poems my parents wrote to each other later in life! My father not only used to write poems in his youth, he did so when he was already a grandpa. My parents confessed their love to each other on a Valentine’s Day. Oh my. My parents never talked romance. They never talked love. The word love doesn’t exist in their language. Or does it? With these poems, I stand corrected.

Someone was kind to offer to make a picture. I supplied the poems and a picture of my parents taken shortly after their wedding. She designed the page.

This is not a translation. I don’t even claim that my words extract all the essence of my parents’ poems. But not everyone reads my parents’ language, I want to at least express some of their love in English for the majority of my audience.

Mom’s poem written on February 14, 1992:

On Valentine’s Day I send you a page
Loving you just like the first days we met
We have been through so much together
In sickness and health we adored each other
I weave a poem to express my love
The love that has deepened with age
The moon is the witness to our love
On Valentine’s Day I send you a page

Dad’s poem written on March 3, 1992 as a response to Mom’s poem:

I am so touched to receive a page
I remember the days when we first met
Under the moonlight we built our dreams
And the gods smiled on us through the years
Our poetry is woven with golden rays
As the evening light dances on your face
Faithfully I am forever yours
I am so touched to receive a page


 

Friday, June 30, 2023

Collage #65

The summer month of June
Sends friends from afar
We take walks and swim
We eat cakes and sing
Cụ goes to a casino
And plays slot machines
With a million-dollar smile
She shows off her prize
Bà goes to Dallas
To be with old friends
They have so much fun
They can’t stop laughing
Drakeson goes to camp
Sleeping away from home
Milli misses him a lot
Five days are so long
Now we are together
June is almost over
But the fun goes on
Summer has just begun
Hurray for summer fun



Monday, May 22, 2023

Hand

When I go to sleep at night
Hand goes to sleep too
In the morning when I rise
Hand prefers to stay asleep a while

Hand is like a lover
Who requires a lot of care
And wants to be caressed
With lotion to stay soft and fair

Hand is not happy with me
Putting Hand in a splint
Ignoring Hand for a few weeks
Even when Hand was swollen

Now the splint is off
But Hand is not pleased
Hand grants me a hard time
Blaming me of neglect

Hand complains of pain
Saying Hand needs some more rest
Before getting flexible
Hand enjoys seeing me beg

Hand tells me I need
To show my love and devotion
It will not be in just a day
When Hand allows feeling well again

Hand says repentance is in order
Adding in time and patience
Hand will think of forgiving
Perhaps in a few weeks

A few weeks or a few months
I opt to learn to wait
I hope Hand will agree
To soon again be supple

I regret getting Hand hurt
And breaking her precious bones
I hope Hand will forgive
So my life will not be so dull

I will take care of Hand
Each hour of the days
Count on me, the faithful lover
Love Hand, I will forever


The poem Hand was written a few days after Tay

Tay

Tối tôi lên giường ngủ

Tay cũng ngủ theo tôi
Sáng mai khi tôi dậy
Tay chưa chịu dậy ngay


Tay như người yêu nhỏ
Cần phải được chở che
Vẫn muốn được vuốt về
Bôi kem lỡ cằn khô

Tay giận tôi mấy tuần
Bó băng không ngó ngàng
Như nằm tù một chỗ
Mà còn bị xưng vù

Bây giờ lấy băng ra
Nhưng tay chưa bằng lòng
Muốn phải được chăm sóc
Không thì Tay làm eo

Buổi sáng Tay nói đau
Cần nằm nghỉ xả hơi
Tay chưa muốn mềm mại
Để tôi còn ỉ ôi

Tay giữ cứng một hồi
Cho đến khi tôi bảo
Tay yêu cho xin lỗi
Thì Tay nhịn một hồi

Nhưng Tay bảo tôi rằng
Phải chứng minh lòng thành
Không phải chỉ một ngày
Mà được lại như xưa

Tay bảo tôi sám hối
Thêm vài tuần nữa thôi
Phải kiên nhẫn đợi chờ
Đến ngày Tay tha thứ

Vài tuần hay vài tháng
Cứ phải nhẫn tâm chờ
Mong một ngày Tay chịu
Dịu dàng lại như xưa

Tôi ăn năn thương Tay
Đã bị gẫy ống xương
Tôi mong Tay quên giận
Để đời đỡ chán chường

Tôi sẽ săn sóc Tay
Nâng niu từng giây phút
Tôi người tình chung thủy
Yêu Tay suốt cuộc đời

Sunday, May 14, 2023

The Questions Mom Asks - Mother's Day 2023

Mom asks if I fell
Each she sees me
Wearing a blue sling
As though she has not seen my splinted arm before

Mom asks when my father died
And the cause of his death
It has been sixteen years
But the loneliness for him is here

Mom asks where Thuan lives
And what about Mai, Hiep, and Tung?
She wishes we were not so far apart
For it doesn’t sit right in her heart

Mom asks about a grandson of hers
Is he working and perhaps with wife?
I reply he is just a young lad
Who is about to complete his high school years

Mom asks who is coming to visit
And who already came and went
Did the visit take place already
And when will we have visitors again?

Mom refers to me as Auntie
When asking my grandchild where I have gone
She must think I am too young
Not old enough to be a grandma of my own

Mom asks if I knew my uncle
Is he now gone from this earth?
Who is his wife she wonders
And how many children did they have together?

Mom asks how did it happen
That the two of us are here with each other?
Did we flee our native land together?
Do you still have the same career?

Mom says she had a dream
An invitation to visit her homeland
She was so happy to say yes
But that was just a dreamy dream

Mom asks if all of us have left
The country of our birthplace
Fleeing to a new country
Which now we call our home

Yes, Dear Mom, all of us have left
The country of our birthplace
It is right what you remember
It was not a dream at all

Dear Mom, you often state
You do not remember things
But that is just fine with me
I will hear whatever you say

Keep on asking me questions
For we have a long time to talk
It is time to shed all worries and sadness
And be happy as we celebrate Mother’s Day



Những Gì Mẹ Hỏi
Viết cho Mother’s Day 2023

Mẹ hỏi con té à
Mỗi lúc thấy tay tôi
Đang đeo cái sling xanh
Như Mẹ thấy lần đầu

Mẹ hỏi năm nào Ba mất
Vì cớ chi Ba mất
Mẹ càng nhớ Ba hơn
Những lúc thấy cô đơn

Mẹ hỏi Thuần ở đâu
Còn Hiệp, Mai, và Tùng?
Sao mỗi đứa mỗi phương
Sợ Mẹ buồn thiên thâu

Me hỏi nghề của cháu
Dạ thưa cháu còn non
Chỉ sắp ra trung học
Vậy Mẹ tưởng cháu đã vợ và con

Mẹ hỏi ai sắp đến
Và ai mới tới chơi
Khách ra đi rồi hả
Bao giờ mình lại có người viếng thăm

Mẹ hỏi cháu ngoại tôi
Cô Trân đi đâu rồi
Chắc Mẹ nghĩ tôi trẻ
Làm chi đã là Bà

Mẹ hỏi con biết bác Đệ chứ
Bác mất rồi phải không
Vợ Bác là ai nhỉ
Bác bao nhiêu người con

Mẹ hỏi tại sao Trời run rủi
Mẹ con ta tới đây
Mình đi chạy loạn chung?
Con vẫn làm nghề xưa?

Mẹ nói tối qua Mẹ nằm mơ
Có bạn rủ về quê nhà
Về Việt Nam Minh Châu Trời Đông 
Mẹ mừng nhưng rồi tỉnh

Có đúng mình đâu còn ai nữa
Mình đã đi cả nhà?
Qua đất nước thứ hai
Mẹ mừng ở với con

À đúng vậy Mẹ ơi
Mình đã đi cả nhà
Me vẫn nhớ đúng ghê
Chẳng phải Mẹ nằm mê

Mẹ ơi Mẹ hay nói
Đầu óc Mẹ hay quên
Nhưng không sao đâu Mẹ
Mẹ hỏi gì con nghe

Mẹ cứ hỏi nhiều câu
Mình nói chuyện dài lâu
Cuối tuần Mẫu Nhật ăn mừng nhé
Mong Mẹ luôn vui quên ưu sầu




Sunday, April 30, 2023

Christmas in April

It was a weekend getaway
A Christmas gift
Like celebrating our anniversary
In a log cabin with a hot tub
For just you and me
So much to see and do
In a charming town
Good food and good music abound
The Play That Goes Wrong went right for us
In good weather we walked around
The wildflowers lured our eyes to see
The hummingbirds kept us company
The pasture cows lay down to rest
The Longhorn cattle showed off their prize
The bats were gone at Old Tunnel Park
But the trails were open the birds were free
The singer strummed his guitar and sang his songs
And told the tales of song writers
Who came to sing when time was old
And to write songs to warm the souls
We relaxed at the Japanese Garden of Peace
A gift given for a friendship so rare and fine
The Zion Lutheran church stood tall
And the Vereins Kirche retained its charm
As we explored the old town’s streets
It was a lovely Christmas in April indeed




Monday, March 27, 2023

Feeling Lost

Behind the smiley face
Lies a deep sadness
Only known to my lonely soul
Amid the laughter
And the surrounding happy sounds
I hold my feelings inside
My mind plays tricks
I am not sure
If what I feel is what should be
Or if I remember things right
Not all things are familiar
I am disoriented
Country borders are a blur
Time line is not a straight line
It circles around
Connecting the past and the present
In a random pattern
That changes each day I wake up
What you tell me are mine
Seem to belong to someone else
I am a little scared
Of what lies ahead
Although I am comforted
With the love and care you share
I yearn for something different
Just to feel I have options
To control my destiny
When in reality I feel so lost

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

A New Beginning

A new phase of our lives begins. A year ago we moved long distance and started a three-generation household. We now will begin a four-generation one, in a new home a bit further away from the city. I think of it as living in the country, even though our address is still the city. I am bringing my mother here to live with us. It will be challenging, but I hope rewarding. My body reacted to something like stress. I suppose that is all normal. There are a few reasons why this change is not good for my mother. She will be in an unfamiliar surrounding with no friends. To walk to the street, she will have to navigate a steep hill of a driveway. She has been expecting to live with my two brothers and a daughter-in-law in her current state of residence. It will be hard for her to communicate with the family members who do not speak her native language. She will have to start all over at an advanced age. But circumstances dictate this change. I hope in time, she will embrace the new lifestyle. I hope the children’s laughter and presence will brighten up her days. Although we all will have to change and adjust, I think our lives will be enriched. I drink to a new beginning.